Karrueche Tran on Chris Brown: “The Man I Loved Hurt Me and Betrayed Me”

Karrueche Tran have had enough with her relationship with R&B singer Chris Brown after it was revealed that Brown had a baby with another woman.

Tran sat down for the first time and had an emotional heart-to-heart with Iyanla Vanzant in “Fix My Life”, an Oprah Winfrey Network exclusive interview Saturday night.

“I want my voice to be heard. For a long time, I kept it very mute, just because it’s the way I prefer it. But I think there’s a lot of misconceptions about me,” the 26-year old model said when asked why she decided to speak out.

“[I feel] hurt, betrayed..I feel like I let myself down.” Karrueche admits to Iyanla when asked how she felt after hearing about Chris’ new baby.

When Vanzant asks if she’s spoken to Brown since she found out about Brown’s baby, Tran says “he’s said he’s sorry, dropped flowers off,” but admits there’s no room for reconciliation at the moment. “There’s no making up right now, I’m trying to be my strongest and I know what he’s put me through,” Tran shares.

And though the on and off 5 year relationship has ended, Tran admitted that Brown will always have a special place in her heart.

“I still love him. I’ve changed to help him—go to church, pray, yoga, meditate—if he were to change, we would be in a better place, but that’s the problem,” she explained. “He did give me love. Maybe it wasn’t the right love or the same level but he’s a product of his environment growing up. There’s no doubt in my mind that Chris loves me. I know he does.”